If Mohanji dies today, will my heart be full of regret? From Kumbh Mela

February 19, 2025

Today’s Satsang was so emotional for me. Mohanji's death—a reality I've been trying to accept since I met him. I've done all sorts of things to prepare myself for it: visualizing that moment, etc.—so that I feel less pain when it really happens. But in reality, nothing can erase the pain.

Mohanji started today's Satsang by intensely telling people that an avadhoota doesn't need them or their rituals. Whatever we do in the name of God, a master, or an avadhoota is solely for our own purification, not for them. They are already complete by nature and don't need anything from you. Krishna said, “If you offer me a leaf or a flower, I will be happy, but please remember, that belongs to me anyway.” This is because they are already expanded throughout the entire universe. In that state, they have no desires. People sometimes fail to see that with Mohanji. They don't understand that whatever Mohanji does is for a solid reason—but not for him.

I heard some people thinking, “Why does Mohanji wear perfume?” (referring to what Mohanji is wearing) or “How can an avadhoota have a branded perfume?” (referring to the “Mohanji” perfume launched recently—a scent invented by a scientist who worked on capturing Mohanji's essence in a fragrance).

These thoughts simply mean we have not understood an avadhoota. He does absolutely e v e r y t h i n g for a reason. We may not always know the reason, but we see the effect of it—how come hundreds of people get transformed in his presence? Forget spiritual practices, meditating, chanting—all that is irrelevant when compared to his presence. No practice can teleport you to a field of stability as much as his presence can. I have spoken about it in my previous blogs. It is all truth. Many times, he has completely changed the course of someone's life just by being near them. A hug, a glance—it works like an atomic bomb on any kind of blockage or stagnation in life. How come people have children after meeting him, after years of failure? How come years of irritable relationships with loved ones suddenly turn into harmony? Can any meditation give you that? Tell me.

Mohanji started the Satsang intensely and told a story that made my heart shrink.

The dying avadhoota

There was a very powerful guru (avadhoota) who had a few disciples. The disciples didn't understand his power and didn’t take him seriously at all because of his strange behavior. He would do unusual things, like bringing people home from the street and feeding them even though they had already eaten, etc. Nobody respected him because of this. But he was a very powerful master. One of his disciples later met Mohanji, after the guru had already died and, full of regret, he told Mohanji the story.

One day, the guru said he was dying and that they should call an ambulance. Nobody acted on it; they thought he was talking nonsense. The guru repeated it, but they ignored him. They ate, relaxed, and got ready for sleep—they didn’t care what the guru was saying. The guru then said, “Bring a white cloth and spread it on the floor. I will die now.” Nobody did it, so he got up and did it himself. He lay down, closed his eyes, and again told them to call an ambulance. Finally, they did.

The car ride from their house to the hospital took two and a half hours. During the entire ride, the guru explained how the ashram should look after his death—what they needed to do, build, and what would happen in the future. He was talking for two and a half hours straight. After 2.5 hours, they reached the hospital, and the doctor who admitted him said, “This man died over three hours ago.”

That means he had already died when he closed his eyes on the white cloth. But he stayed, speaking for 2.5 hours, giving instructions and guidance, because it was important. That was when his disciples realized who he was—an extremely powerful avadhoota, a master who had the power to speak even after leaving the body. The guru allowed the free will of his disciples to think whatever they wanted, he never cared whether they understood him. But by the time they realized it, it was too late. He was already gone.

“He never cared whether they understood him” — this is very true for Mohanji, too. Please don’t fool yourself into thinking Mohanji will pull your sleeve before he dies to tell you, “You didn’t connect sufficiently”. He will never say that. Knock and the door will be open. He will tell you jokes but he will never remind you of this. This is the only thing which is on you, which he doesn’t like to discuss. You can discuss with him anything, but when it comes to your connection, your doubts, your jumping from one guru to the other, that’s when he steps back, and it’s all on you. This is the only job you have. He does everything else. If you cannot do this one job, or you expect you will get some kind of reminders, you’re fooled.

I’ve seen people who even do receive reminders (not necessarily from Mohanji) and they don’t take it seriously. Too much of ego to accept that they are on the wrong track.

Mohanji was speaking about the disciple who told him this story, and he said, “Every time he would talk about his guru, he would start crying. He had huge regret for not understanding who his guru was, while the guru was alive.”

“But doesn’t the guru stay energetically present after death?” That’s irrelevant. Of course, he does, but if he has taken a body, it means we need to understand him while he is still here. If it were sufficient to have only non-living masters, we could all connect to those who already lived. But the highest realization can be achieved if we understand a guru while he is still living, because that’s the toughest job. You are constantly distracted by how he walks, dresses, and eats, and you fail to see the truth. You take it so easily. “Oh, Mohanji will be here, no problem.” Not so. He will leave when you least expect it, and he will never come back in another body.

Let alone him—you won’t even get another living master for many lifetimes if you miss Mohanji in this life. That’s not something I’m saying, it’s what the masters have said. If you miss a living master in one life, destiny will not give you another one soon because you have already wasted your chance. So don’t be too relaxed about these things. If we are too relaxed, we are also ignorant. That’s what Mohanji always says: “Be alert, aware, active.”

You will have to be born so many more times until the next living master comes to you. It may not be easy, and regret may haunt you. You may even fall, get entangled in emotions, and further extend that time. If it was 15 lifetimes, it could easily become 30. All this has not come from me.

Master with the Goddess

Another story Mohanji told is about a master who was 122 years old when Mohanji met him. He lived in a house surrounded by a huge snake that guarded him. There was no dog guardian; instead, it was a snake. Many people avoided him because of the snake. The snake would leave its big skin near the gate, and nobody would come close. But this master invited Mohanji—he loved Mohanji a lot. Mohanji accepted.

The Goddess Mookambika used to appear every day at the house of this master, and he would worship her. This master was the only one who could see her. Mohanji and Devi arrived, and the master was relaxed, cooking. Mohanji asked, “Master, why are you so relaxed, is the Goddess not coming?” He said, “Oh, yes, she is, but she got delayed because of something.” The guru later suddenly said, “Quickly, she’s coming!” and he ran to his worship room. He started doing rituals at a chair where the Goddess was sitting, invisible to others.

When they finished, the master said to Mohanji, “Mohanji, if somebody stays with me for three years without leaving, I can make them the most powerful master in the world.” Only three years, but without leaving him. There was a guy with him who had been there for one year. Mohanji told this guy specifically not to leave the master, to stay put, because the master would have to transfer all that he had to somebody (all his spiritual wealth, to somebody who is ripe and ready). But the guy left, and the master died. The disciple later called Mohanji to tell him the reasons why he left, but Mohanji was not interested, and just said, “It doesn't matter, it's done now. You missed it.” He wasn’t interested in listening to stupid reasons. What can be more important than becoming complete? From helpless to complete? If there is something more important, masters won’t object. :-) Our tradition is, anyway, based entirely on free will.

The importance of attending Mohanji's satsang with respect

Many people take Satsangs casually— whether they come or don't come, it's the same for them. We need to understand that this whole Mohanji Village and Mohanji Foundation exists because of one man, and that man is disrespected. Satsang is only one half hours A DAY (during Kumbh; after that, we don't know).

He works hard during that Satsang, and people don't show up for that 1.5 hours. Not all people, of course. But some. If we don't attend the Satsang, are we enlightened already? Do we know the matter, so that's why we don't attend? This is very boring to Mohanji.

Mohanji anyway doesn't care about who attends, but the problem is that the same people who don't come for the Satsang, later complain about life or problems. What Mohanji delivers during the Satsang (which we need to absorb with alertness and awareness) is also hard work. It's not some empty words. It's work which penetrates us deeply, and maybe after absorbing everything from the Satsang we may not need additional help or healing with certain problems. He works like a tsunami on our problems in the Satsang.

Mohanji delivers serious healing and clarity in the Satsangs. If you miss a Satsang and later request to see Mohanji, it may not happen. Or even pray to him. Always remember, not every Satsang is the same. Mohanji gives something else each time. What happened yesterday will never be delivered again.

Our volunteers sitting far away, or walking, peeping and going—Mohanji doesn't appreciate this. If this continues, Mohanji may no longer conduct Satsang. This is very important. Respect.

Mohanji doesn't want anybody's favor. If you don't attend, then you should never attend any program. It is not a punishment. You are getting something out of it. As Mohanji says, you've got to drill and drill and drill to get out of this pattern of karma. You've got to drill a lot. So now if you avoid it, and choose only the cozy stuff, it's not acceptable.

The disciple’s regret from the first story hit me hard, and my heart shrank. I was translating Mohanji's satsang at that moment, so I had to be normal. But I just wanted to scream. Regret for missing a master—the most horrible, terrible feeling I will ever know. Nobody and nothing will convince me there is something worse. Regret that you can never erase, with any practice. Especially because Mohanji is not taking another birth.

The only tears I can perhaps have after Mohanji’s death are tears of sadness, but I don’t ever want to know the tears of regret.

I know some of you are upset that I talk about Mohanji’s death so often, but isn’t it a reality? Why should we lie to ourselves? It's better to face the truth now—then we can set our priorities. If Mohanji is an option to us and not our priority, then maybe after listening to these two stories, we will start to think. And maybe when we are constantly reminded of HIS inevitable death, we can organize our priorities.

If we have even once had the opportunity to meet Mohanji but said, “Oh, this is an obstacle, that is an obstacle, I'll just leave it for another time,” it means we have already taken him for granted. We are assuming that he will be available another time, right? Then what is he living for? Apart from removing all our garbage, he also needs to wait for our convenient time? If all people say that, he might as well leave his body earlier, if nobody takes him as a priority.

Who says there will be another time? Are you aware of the number of his days on Earth? What if he has another 365 days on Earth, and there is garbage in you that cannot be removed even in 600 days? Even one time of missing him may mean missing your chance for evolution. He won’t suffer, but you will, when you are born again in the same family, with the same bitter problems you have even now, but this time worse, because you took an avatar for granted.

At every meeting, Mohanji gives something different. Don’t assume that each time it’s the same.

You may think I'm imagining this, but it's very simple. I have seen enough and more examples of EXACTLY this, in nine years with Mohanji. Nine extensive years, often being near him, listening to what he says in private, seeing people's transformations and MISSED transformations—so trust me, it’s nothing but the truth. And this is only one dimension of it. There are many more dimensions why you should never take somebody like Mohanji for granted. It’s the worst mistake you can make.

If you have even one particle of taking Mohanji for granted, and somewhere there is limited capacity at a program with Mohanji, the tradition will bring to him those whose hearts yearn for Mohanji, not those who are partially relaxed and think of meeting him another time. The tradition is very strict when it comes to Mohanji, and I have seen it in action. When I took Mohanji for granted, I felt it on my skin. They are very strict because they don’t want Mohanji’s time to be wasted. If his time is wasted, the next logical step for the tradition is that Mohanji leaves Earth before time. If his presence is not valued or required, there is no point.

Another aspect of this is, “Oh, I don’t want to bother Mohanji.” This is ego. Somebody told Mohanji about some people who think they would bother him, and he responded with a lot of intensity, “Then what’s their integrity?!” We are not kind or cute if we constantly have desires to talk to Mohanji or hug Mohanji but think we will bother him. It’s not at all selfless—it’s stupidity and ego, and it doesn’t align with your integrity. Once he is dead, you will know it was stupidity.

Disclaimer: I am not saying go to Mohanji and overburden him with everything you’ve got. Be aware that his time is precious and limited. But my only point is that even though some people think avoiding him is a selfless act, it’s not. Mohanji is bothered by your ego more than he is bothered by a minute of your hug or whatever two words you have to tell him. He considers it a lack of integrity if you are not able to articulate what’s boiling inside.

When Mohanji dies, I will be sad—I know it. But I also know there are two options for me:

1. Ultimate regret for not understanding who he really is on time.

2. Freedom from regret because I understood who he is, because he has always been my priority, and because I didn’t entertain nonsense thoughts and doubts while he was living.

If we are still not making Mohanji our priority or are thinking bullshit thoughts like “Why this perfume?” etc., please understand that it will become a huge, bitter stain of regret in your heart when he dies. You won’t be able to get rid of it. You are thinking nonsense stuff (even not telling it to other people who could give you an answer, which would help you), and you will end up realizing the huge mistake you made during the birth of an avatar. At least share your doubts to somebody who won’t judge you, so that you clear it from you. 

If this blog shook you, it’s made to do so. Shock is good if it means bringing back clarity, alertness, awareness, positive qualities, and reorganizing priorities.

When we later spoke to Mohanji, he explained why he spoke about those things at the beginning of the satsang. He said he could feel that a lot of people were doubting their gurus, and that’s why he wanted to give a strong answer straight away. People don’t understand that all their thoughts reach Mohanji. They do come to him. He hears everything.

I heard some people even thought, “How did Shirdi Sai Baba live like a poor man and give everything he had to other people?” You see Mohanji living any differently because you are watching superficially.

1. Mohanji has a different purpose than Baba—a global purpose during his lifetime. Baba had a local purpose during his lifetime and a global purpose only after his death. Mohanji has a global purpose both while living and after death. Because of that, you may see more material things around Mohanji, because so many things are needed to execute that global purpose—modern things that you see in Mohanji’s programs. But only those who have served or lived with Mohanji know very well that whatever is around Mohanji, he doesn’t care. If he gets bread or a luxury lunch, it’s the same for him. If he has ten beds, one can only use one. It’s our own greedy minds that get reflected in somebody so pure as Mohanji.

2. Secondly, he is never even able to experience anything on his own because he is never alone. Constantly surrounded by people, their diseases, desires, and requests. Ugly, smelly diseases and ugly, smelly emotional drama. If you think Mohanji enjoys it so much, why don’t you try walking in his shoes and receiving dozens of ill or dramatic people today? Because all those do come to him. And on top of that, take their karma from them and try living with it. You will faint. 🙂

3. Some people wonder how come Mohanji has branded clothes. Mohanji never buys clothes for himself—people buy them for him out of love, even though he has repeatedly said to give to those in need. He accepts such gifts because if he doesn’t, people feel sad, rejected, unloved. He doesn’t keep any clothes for long. He wears them for some time until the person who gifted them is happy, and then he gives them for auction, which gets sold, and the money is used for benevolent purposes.

4. If you see only a fragment of the whole reality, you are delusional. You believe what you want to believe, not what is true. Please understand the world is your mirror. You are seeing in the world what you essentially are.

Conclusion

After this satsang, I felt very good. Very clear about my priority. The shock suited me a lot. During Sai Baba’s Aarti that night, I could feel much more bhav. I felt Baba’s presence very tangibly. It wasn’t only a thought, I could really feel him as a strong force behind and around his statue (murti). That was the result of this satsang: increased bhav, clarity, and priority. Priority. Priority. Priority.