It was May 2017 (the Bosnian pyramids pilgrimage) when I met Mohanji for the first time. During the pilgrimage, I had an opportunity to speak to Him privately for the first time too. My heart almost broke through my chest out of expansion, excitement and love that I felt when I saw Him and spoke to Him there.
The Bosnian programme had ended. While I was in the bus to Serbia, tears suddenly started sliding down my cheeks and a strange feeling of sadness overwhelmed me for going further and further away from Mohanji. At that time I could not recognize our spiritual connection and the fact that I was distancing myself from His physical form was creating an empty, lonely space in my heart. I strongly felt that I finally had found what I had been looking for for so long, but I also felt that I am now abandoning it. I can't even describe the heavy feeling that continued wrapping my chest while thoughts of losing Mohanji were adding to it. I was aware I took a long time to reach Him in this life, and because of that I was even more afraid of going away from Him in any way. I was continuously crying and I could not stop it.
To explain what followed my emotional outburst in the bus, I have to first give you some background on what I used to do in the past when emotions like this would appear in my mind.
During the time when I still hadn't met Mohanji in His physical form I used to practice one method of communicating with Him astrally and I was sure it worked one hundred percent every time. Whenever I used to feel down, I would play a radio or start the 'shuffle' mood in the my music folder on my phone and pray to Mohanji to choose the song Himself, play it and speak through it. Sometimes before playing the music, while praying, I would ask Him a question and ask Him to respond through a song, and other times when I had no idea what to ask I would just tell Him to tell me anything, just so I know He is there. Thanks to this method and Mohanji's grace who led me to it I was able to survive many challenging times of my life when illusions, confusions, sorrows and pains were trying hard to pull me down and when I had no one to speak to.
While I was sitting in the bus for Serbia that time, while the tears were filling my eyes, I suddenly remembered this method and wanted to seek Mohanji's help through it again. I took my phone, I prayed to Him to speak to me and tell me whatever I need to know through music and clicked the 'shuffle' button on my phone which allows the phone to play the songs randomly. I started repeating Mohanji's name in my mind to make sure He hears me and responds to me accordingly. Little did I know that He is aware even when I think of Him or say His name once, and that there is no need to repeat it millions of times. I finally gained trust, after repeating His name many times, that He will now find a way to communicate to me. Out of 1000 songs in my phone, the first song that the phone played was "I am your angel" by Celine Dion and R. Kelly. Below this paragraph I will share the song's lyrics (please note every word's power and recognize Divinity in them) and then, next to each line, I write my humble understanding of what I believe Mohanji wanted to convey to me through it.
Please note: The song's lyrics are in Italic font, and what I believe Mohanji wanted to convey through it is bold.
"I'm Your Angel" by Celine Dion and R. Kelly
No mountain's too high for you to climb - Nothing is impossible. You are strong. I will hold your hand and you can overcome anything.
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah - Have faith.
No river's too wide for you to make it across - You are strong. I will hold your hand and you can do anything.
All you have to do is believe it when you pray - Have faith.
And then you will see the morning will come - The time will come
And every day will be bright as the sun - when everything will be OK. (He was remidning me that everything is temporary, just like my emotions and sadness that I was feeling)
All of your fears cast them on me - I know about your fears. Surrender them to Me and I will take care of them. (He knew that I fear so many things including losing Him! He was not physically with me, yet He knew it perfectly!!!)
I just want you to see
I'll be your cloud up in the sky - I will be your protector.
I'll be your shoulder when you cry - I am here for you.
I hear your voices when you call me - (I called His name and He indeed heard it!!!)
I am your angel - I protect you.
And when all hope is gone, I'm here - I am always with you.
No matter how far you are, I'm near - Physical closeness is nothing. I am always with you.
It makes no difference who you are - I don't care who you are in terms of what you possess, whether you are rich or not, whether you are pretty, ugly, sad, happy, fat or skinny - I always love you.
I am your angel - I protect you.
I'm your angel - I protect you.
I saw your teardrops and I heard you cry - (He heard me cry! He is THAT much powerful!)
All you need is time seek me and you shall find - Be patient. Seek me and I am there. Think of me and I am with you.
You have everything and you're still lonely - You have everything, yet you are feeling lonely. Don't keep these feelings. Be grateful for what you have.
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day
And then you will see the morning will come - The time will come
And all of your day will be bright as the sun - when everything will be OK.
All of your fears cast them on me - I know about your fears. Surrender them to Me and I will take care of them.
How can I make you see - I am trying my best to make you see the truth.
And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side - I will always be with you.
Grace will keep us safe and warm - (The song is even talking about the Grace factor! This can't be more true!)
And I know we will survive - Hold on. You will survive.
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near - Even when life seems the worst
Don't you dare give up the fight - Never give up. Always hold on. "Stay in the bus." Just put your trust beyond the skies - Have faith in the Tradition of Liberation.
Words fail to describe how I felt after hearing this song. It is important to remember that I previously prayed to Mohanji and asked Him to speak to me and tell me what I need to hear. I can't even explain the feeling. I am certain now that Mohanji's power has NO limits. It is so vast, so firm, so promising, so trustworthy, so strong and indescribable, too. His power has NO limits.
Click HERE to hear the song. To experience the song fully, please be aware of the lyrics.
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