This is a continuation to my earlier blog "Mohanji – The Universe". In this blog I will share what happened after my experience of expansion.
The play of duality
Saturday July 16, 2022 was the day I experienced Mohanji's expanded state. Two days later, on Monday July 18, 2022, something opposite to liberation took place – I had a completely unnecessary argument with a friend.
Everything erupted on all sides – emotion, anger, crying, etc. I was feeling worthless and misunderstood. I wondered “How could it be?” Just two days ago I was with Mohanji in the Universe, and today I was totally emotional. Drowned. Such a volcano hadn't occurred to me in many months. I faced challenges in the past one year, but none was this bad. It seemed like a tornado of emotions. I went to breathe and think deeply about this incident.
I sat down and Mahavatar Babaji’s picture was reflecting in the mirror in front of me. I calmed down and looked at the situation from a larger picture. This is what I understood.
When huge positivity takes birth, the negative side compensates for its part. I saw Mohanji's liberated state. I was like a butterfly in the whole canvas of the Universe. What I experienced was perpetual happiness. I tasted the whole state of liberation, not bound by Earth, not bound by body, not bound by mind. Entering any body, experiencing that body. I was totally free. Only one thought had the power to teleport me to the Sun, planets, the Earth, the ocean. A karmic being can never experience that alone, it needs direct allowance of somebody who is already the Universe. The experience of liberation needed to be followed by the dark. Binding.
Coming back to my body from travelling, I had to pay the price of it. The opposite of liberation. One way or the other, some emotional volcano needed to erupt. I drowned and believed it was important, it was the center of life, but it wasn't. Silly emotions and tears, confusion. The incident had nothing to do with the person too, because in some way the emotion needed to erupt. It was destined to happen through some body, any body. The person needed to behave in this way to give me that effect. If they said, "everything is okay", I wouldn't have felt it. This is the play of duality.
After all the travelling, Mohanji landed me in water. Purification. He made sure I purify myself before coming back to the body. Water reduced the intensity of the attack that was about to take place. Going up and down in the water, diving to the depth, jumping outside, swimming, increased purification.
If He hadn't orchestrated this , the attack would have been worse, coming through somebody who I could not avoid, like a family member. By landing me in water, He reduced it to something very small, manageable. It erupted and cooled down within a few hours. I was new again.
Ocean being the end of my travels, and a purification factor, was important to remember. The sequence of travelling was for a reason. A few minutes after the experience of cosmic consciousness, due to too much excitement, I had forgotten the sequence. But with a master, everything has to be remembered clearly. Everything has a reason, everything has its “why”. Purification needed to happen in the very end, before coming back to the body.
For any seeker of truth it’s useful to know that for every expansion, binding is the price we pay. This is why Mohanji doesn't show His state to us. We can’t handle it, so He plays a fool and we believe it. Even to His close people He sometimes says things totally casually, pretending He doesn’t know something, asking us questions that we'd think He has answers to, etc. The masters who experienced liberated states all the time were always killed here. They paid with their bodies. One side is levitational and the other is gravitational. One has to come with the other.
Emotions are binding, restricting and controlling stuff. We should have nothing to do with them. We should stay clear of them. We should value relationships. Respect them. Leave the past behind. We should not bring those moments and matters into the present again. We should stay fresh every moment because it's a new life each moment. Being a hangover of the emotions of the past is foolishness.
Possible hints before expansion
Below, I will name two experiences that I had a few months before the expansion experience.
Shark experience
A few months ago, while jogging in the gym and connecting to Mohanji, I saw something with my inner eye that got repeated every day onwards. This was the time when I was actively doing my workouts in the gym. I was putting a lot of effort to leave some old patterns which I described in my blog "New Year Awareness".
It was unexpected. It was a vision of a shark coming out of the ocean, breaking through concrete. The concrete was like a layer on the ocean's surface. It was so thick, and it had stones on it. The shark's face was almost like a roaring lion, kind of an angry expression, peeking through it, as it broke through it. More determined than actually angry. "Purpose-driven" may be the best description. Shark's teeth were crushing the layers. The pain on the shark's face and the efforts made to leave this trap were visible.
The vision didn't scare me. It left me more powerful every time. Days were not easy for me due to the previously mentioned patterns, but this vision kept me going. It gave me strength to keep doing my workouts. My goal was to silence the mind by exhausting the physical body.
I don’t know for sure but I assume this could have been an important event prior to experiencing the expanded state. At that time, I didn't analyze it. Looking at it from now, I feel Mohanji was telling me to be persistent like that shark, because the more empty I am, the more He will be ready to give. And shark's determination is exactly what I was receiving the more I saw it.
Jogging experience
In the gym, I used to get another vision, also around that time. Perhaps January or February 2022. It appeared every day for 3-4 days in a row. I didn't share it to anyone. It then stopped and never came back again.
As I was jogging on a treadmill, feeling weak to finish the workout, I saw a golden hand on my left side in front of me, somewhere in the level of my eyes. I looked and felt the energy of Mohanji. I felt He was running. Body was running but the hand was there in front of me. It was unordinary but I didn't analyze it. I was almost completely losing my energy to continue and when I took the hand, it improved. I felt Mohanji’s energy in the form of Mahavatar Babaji. Very calm, very powerful but silent. Says nothing but tells you everything.
Like a fan on which you cannot see the blades when they're spinning, my eyes couldn't catch His feet. They were moving too fast. Unbelievable speed.
Those 3-4 days of holding the golden hand while jogging gave me even more power in my physical body. My endurance got higher.
I feel these two experiences prepared me to be more detached from emotions, more alert and aware, with better clarity of purpose – the vision of what I want in life. Merging with supreme consciousness.
Changes after experiencing expansion
After the experience of cosmic consciousness with Mohanji, I noticed some changes.
As of physical signs, I felt fine for 2-3 days, then I started feeling high heat in my head, shoulders, chest and belly for a few days. It was similar to experiencing fever, but different. On some days, I felt my chest was physically expanded, as if my skin and bones were stretching.
I felt much better awareness and understanding that Mohanji is permanent and omnipresent.
More power in the physical body, which was visible during my workouts in the gym.
Better experience of expansion in everyday life. It was not a theory in my mind anymore. Without much effort or focus, I could feel life more. I felt more respect for the things that keep me alive, like water, for example. More respect towards parents who brought me up. More respect to the guru whose job is to take us to cosmic consciousness, and He does it out of pure compassion.
I felt more self-acceptance and when I practice the following – I am not this body, I am not this mind, I am not this intellect, nor ego – I actually feel it. When I say it now, it actually has power. Earlier, it was just a concept and a craving.
When I read Mohanji’s quotes and blogs about us being the Universe, it is felt. Earlier, it was amazement. Now, it is my experience.
Through rememberance of cosmic consciousness I get similr effect even today. Thinking or just looking at the pictures or videos of whales give me rememberance of expansion, and it helps me detach from everyday emotions whose job is to keep us bound by earthly existence.
Mohanji's purpose is to take people to liberation, but if we choose emotions over liberation, His hands are tied. We may be stuck in Kali Yuga for a very long time and may not be able to get out. This is Mohanji's last birth on Earth. Those who use it well can be called wise :)
Thank you for reading ❤️ I wish you all the best. May the blessings of the guru always be with us
Best regards
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Awesome experience and I like how you described it. When expansion happens stronger duality happens as well. Our goal is permanent state not experience. You know how Mohanji says "Do you want experiences or do you want catch God" 🙏❤️
Let us all who want it reach this sublime state ❤️🔥