Watching a movie with Mohanji
Last year, in 2023, while Mohanji was staying in Belgrade, I visited Him at His apartment. I had some tasks to handle with His personal assistants, and I also came to see Him.
For the longest time I had a huge desire to watch a movie with Mohanji, any movie. I wasn’t aware of this desire until it actually happened (another proof that Mohanji knows even our deepest thoughts and desires, and does His best to fulfill them all). I just wanted to have that silent, intimate, family moment with Him, at least for some time to feel that this life is not such a big rush and that there is still time. I usually feel the opposite around Mohanji (and I like it that way, because then I don’t procrastinate) because I know how limited His time is, and how busy He is always, and I know that this is also His last life on Earth—He will have no further incarnations—which makes it even more important to ensure that every second of His time is used meaningfully.
I wanted to feel at least for a moment that there is no time limit with Him. Perhaps I started being more aware that Mohanji’s life may end at any moment, so I wanted to experience the most with Him.
Perhaps I also desired this because Mohanji works 24/7, 365 days a year, and we don’t often get to relax with Him. His time is really precious and limited. Of course, He definitely makes time for the people who love Him, but sometimes that’s also not always possible. He wants to please everybody, but unfortunately, sometimes you have to prioritize a larger good.
When I visited Mohanji that day in Belgrade, He suddenly started showing me scenes of an Indian movie which I liked very much. The movie unfortunately shows a harsh reality of a family, and ends tragically, but it carries very powerful messages of loyalty, trust, family, connection, and such values, which Mohanji strongly stands for. I learnt a lot from it.
At one moment when that whole experience ended, I realized that what Mohanji played was the full movie. It wasn’t just a few selected scenes. Of course, He skipped a few parts, but in the end, we watched most of it. None of the important scenes were left out—including the intriguing beginning and the dramatic ending. I couldn’t believe how long He allowed the movie to play—He usually doesn’t have that much time to spare! Perhaps it was very important. My happiness was endless. It was like watching a movie with the son of God. It was like heaven, something unimaginable. I would never have hoped for or predicted something like that—ever. I thought this never happens. I was internally repeating to myself, “Enjoy while it’s still happening!” I knew this never happens, and when it does, you gotta be very aware of it and grateful, otherwise it goes away quickly.
To be honest, Mohanji broke a very big mental barrier in my mind that day—the belief that I would never feel there are no time limits with Mohanji. I always feel there are, as I said, because of His crazily busy schedule. And that day, I actually didn’t feel them. I think that was a profound desire too.
I don’t need to feel that always, of course, I just wanted a moment. And He gave it to me! Plus much more than a moment, He gave quite some time!
I was so fulfilled and happy after this. He did say that in this life He will be fulfilling people’s desires about Him because this is His last life on Earth, but I never expected this. Perhaps you are wondering, like me, why did I deserve this. I have to say, prior to getting all the big and precious experiences with Mohanji, I always exercised deep gratitude, humility, happiness for whatever I got with Him, even if it’s one second of His presence. Never thanklessness, comparing, judging, being sad about how somebody treated you poorly, being disappointed how Mohanji didn’t speak to you, etc. Just happiness, happiness, for being around Him, for breathing the same air, for even knowing an avadhoota like Him. I didn’t exercise these to get something, but I did notice that this pattern always brought me luck. It always resulted in something big, positive coming my way. It’s like I found a golden mine. Whenever I was grumpy, ungrateful, unaware of Mohanji’s diamond-like value, I never got anything, moreover, I attracted more situations of that nature. Life literally threw back at me what I sent out to it, every time. In Mohanji’s presence, somehow it manifests even more rapidly than in normal life.
So, another thing I believed was impossible, but He proved it was not. In fact, nothing is impossible with Him. You just have to trust Him.
When He told me that he accepted me fully
Once, He told me with a lot of intensity, “I have accepted you fully, so why can’t you accept yourself?!” Hearing that was so beautiful. Even though His voice was intense, I was extremely happy to hear this from Him. It was like a loving mother being a bit angry that the child is not understanding how much he/she is loved. I just melted.
And I have to add that He said this in addition to years of proving the same with actions. He didn’t just say it—it would have been empty speech. He did so much, supporting me at every single corner and fall, lifting me up from the dirtiest mud, giving me incredible opportunities when nobody did, believing in me even at times of self-hate, guiding me to use all my talents and strengths even when I thought I had none. So perhaps when He saw that I was persistent in not accepting myself, He finally said it verbally. 😂 It’s hard to change our patterns, especially wrong beliefs about ourselves, but when a Master is telling us something, it’s because it’s true. And we just have to believe it. Jump into the river without thinking too much.
Combing Mohanji’s hair
One of the most beautiful moments with Mohanji for me was making and combing His hair, and applying cream on his face. First of all His hair is incredibly soft, like a baby's. Or like the smoothest cotton.
One time, while combing Mohanji’s hair I felt I was combing Mahavatar Babaji’s hair. I just saw that same hair as Babaji’s from that angle. Mohanji suddenly asked, “Do you know whose hair you’re combing?” I laughed so much out of excitement. I said, “Babaji’s”. He just smiled mildly. I knew He knew my thoughts. I realized I had had a deep longing to comb Babaji’s hair from long ago, and it got fulfilled through Mohanji in this life. I was incredibly happy and humbled.
When I cooked for Him
I’ve had so many precious opportunities to feed Mohanji, and it gives me incredible joy to have had that experience. To me, there is nothing more precious than Him in this world. Everything else is passing, but my connection to Him is eternal. He is somebody who can love you much more than you will ever be able to understand. And serving such a person, being able to cook for Him or assist as His personal attendant, were the best days of my life.
Mohanji will die some day and I wish all people would understand what a precious diamond He is before that happens. Of course, it’s never too late, but it’s much more important to recognize somebody like Mohanji while they are still alive. Why? Because it takes courage and a strong personality to recognize somebody like Him and stand by them, because they break your ego into pieces. And they speak the truth. Those who cannot handle the truth will respect only a picture on the wall because a picture cannot talk. Then we imagine in our mind what that picture might tell us. But it’s often not the truth. It’s our version of the truth, which we adapted to our preference so that we feel good about it. We have concepts about God and we nurture it, but it’s the opposite of truth. The point is to know the truth, not our version of the truth which is adapted. A living Master talks to you straightforwardly which is not always pleasant, because it breaks our comfort zones. We protect our comfort zones with all our hands and legs.
I know many people will understand Mohanji only when He dies because that’s how society functions. Whenever somebody like Him walks this Earth, we don’t know what to do, so we crucify them. But when they leave, we start respecting them. We put their picture on our wall. We cannot handle the truth coming from a living person. Why? We are too proud to accept somebody like that. How can another human be wiser than us? Too proud, too used to our comfort zone. Crucifixion didn’t end with Jesus. People who crucified Jesus still walk this Earth. Anyhow, things cannot change overnight, so I don’t expect this to change either.
Concluding words
Be grateful for everything you get from Him because you will probably never get it again, in any life :) Use His incarnation because I am sure He is off to go soon :) You may think we will all stay here for so much more time, but time flies, and it will be done before you know it.
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